The Lonely Road

The name's Marty

age: 20
sign: Libra
hobbies: writing, reading, games

Quotes of my life:

1. I spent half my life betraying a friend or an ideal I believed in,
The other half is spent trying to find the strength to say "I'm sorry" -Nighthawk

2. Nothing should be able to do that, especially not love -Rose Walker

3. By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe -V

4. When you're on you're knees you're closer to the ground -Tori Amos

5. Why must the grieving be so short and this life so long? -Silver Surfer

6. You should never forget that people do care -Richmond

7. Love was never meant to be such a crazy affair, and who has time for tears? -Akira Yamaoka

8. Friend, at your service! -Berk

9. Happy is me cuz only u make urself miserable -Myles

10. Safe to say, everyone believes in your willpower -Glenn

11. On the road to redemption, just because we are told not to forget
doesn't mean we have to go through things alone -original

12. One true friend is better than a dozen liars -confessional

13. Just live life -James

14. I'd rather be the moon to shine your darkest night -Sophia

15. Life is a circumstance -original

16. Better to live in solitude than feel alone amongst a crowd -Faye

17. That's why ice cream stores don't only sell Chocolate and Vanilla,
Once in a while, someone comes in and orders Butter Pecan -Ralph Digby

18. And so, I'll follow you through the darkness of this world, no matter the pain,
Because I know that you'll be there to light my way -God Knows

19. Sometimes, people build walls around them to have people knock them down -???

20. Now, you listen to me, James Hawkins. You got the makings of greatness in you, but you got to take the helm and chart your own course. Stick to it, no matter the squalls! And when the time comes you get the chance to really test the cut of your sails, and show what you're made of! Well, I hope I'm there, catching some of the light coming off you that day. -John Silver

Still some more to be found...

Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Breaker

How long will it take for suffering to stop and you will finally feel release? I guess I often wonder why I still trek through life the way I do.

I never did grow up.

When I see friends around me, it seems that I am being left behind in a way. It's like I do not realize what I'm heading towards, often realizing the fact that I am not sure who I was, am and will be. College does that to you, I guess. With all the different paths of life available, I find myself perhaps in a standpoint of where I am heading because honestly, I do not know my own path. People often have a special something, a forte and they seek to follow that but for me, it's different, I'm a jack of all trades, master of nothing so it's pretty hard for me to decide on what I would be.

I lose my focus too much at times, often costing me a test and so but it's just because I have too much to think about other things. Engineering was never my thing but I like to think of the possibilities. I don't know, more than anything though, I'd like to be a Detective or something in Arts; writing, drawing, comics or graphics and such, but what will I expect from this place? Nothing much, happy enough if I get something, even happier if I end up happy. But I really did forget what I was looking for. I guess I'm just writing things like these to focus myself again. Been a long time really, since I learned to remember who I am. In fact, who am I, really? Just an anonymous person writing on an online diary. Wouldn't be different from other people.

The more I step forward, the more I fear the path ahead cuz I wander what lurks out there. Will it consume me or reward me? Or even worse, would I find myself straying too far on the wrong path? I'm afraid the only thing I will find is an empty shell of myself because moving forward means leaving behind some things, things I haven't finished or achieved yet; Dreams. I finally figured out what my parents told me about growing up, something like "Enjoy yourself while you're young, you won't get another chance to" From where I am, I can already see it and I fear it like a fear I have never --ever-- felt.

Riding the Lightning
10:45 PM

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