The Lonely Road

The name's Marty

age: 20
sign: Libra
hobbies: writing, reading, games

Quotes of my life:

1. I spent half my life betraying a friend or an ideal I believed in,
The other half is spent trying to find the strength to say "I'm sorry" -Nighthawk

2. Nothing should be able to do that, especially not love -Rose Walker

3. By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe -V

4. When you're on you're knees you're closer to the ground -Tori Amos

5. Why must the grieving be so short and this life so long? -Silver Surfer

6. You should never forget that people do care -Richmond

7. Love was never meant to be such a crazy affair, and who has time for tears? -Akira Yamaoka

8. Friend, at your service! -Berk

9. Happy is me cuz only u make urself miserable -Myles

10. Safe to say, everyone believes in your willpower -Glenn

11. On the road to redemption, just because we are told not to forget
doesn't mean we have to go through things alone -original

12. One true friend is better than a dozen liars -confessional

13. Just live life -James

14. I'd rather be the moon to shine your darkest night -Sophia

15. Life is a circumstance -original

16. Better to live in solitude than feel alone amongst a crowd -Faye

17. That's why ice cream stores don't only sell Chocolate and Vanilla,
Once in a while, someone comes in and orders Butter Pecan -Ralph Digby

18. And so, I'll follow you through the darkness of this world, no matter the pain,
Because I know that you'll be there to light my way -God Knows

19. Sometimes, people build walls around them to have people knock them down -???

20. Now, you listen to me, James Hawkins. You got the makings of greatness in you, but you got to take the helm and chart your own course. Stick to it, no matter the squalls! And when the time comes you get the chance to really test the cut of your sails, and show what you're made of! Well, I hope I'm there, catching some of the light coming off you that day. -John Silver

Still some more to be found...

Monday, February 21, 2005
Pointless

Today just has to be the worst day, or second worse or third to my worst day at one time but all the same, this day sucked.

Most people don't know about this but I come to school in a delivery truck and I mean in the cargo area. Now, no excuses, we are poor and we don't have enough cars or drivers to bring me to school every frickin 9 am in the morning so I hitch a ride in the delivery truck which today, was filled with raw fish and chickens. As if the day couldn't get worse, I had a good 50 pages of reading combined from english, poetry and filipino today.

This moment in time, I was able to recuperate about where I am in my life. One, my grades aren't all that good with Physics and Math proding me with their goddamn formulas and solutions. Two, my social life is totally abysmmal. Let's face it, I'm not good with people -being devoid of human sentiments- now try that with someone I'm interested in and you get a no show,"move along people nothing to see here"

'"Ever"

Shit has hit the fan people. Misery loves to serve em up big. All the while in Ateneo, all I did was sulk and share my life of despair to anyone willing enough to lend an ear. Sometimes I feel like I want to just shut myself down and cry, crying's good, it lets the frustrations out but thing is, I can't do that cuz nothing has hit me that hard. All I get is a little by little disintegration of my sorry existence. I hate this. But what's amazing is, my luck seems to get better when I am in my lowly state of depression, go figure. Heck, I write better too. The Big Cosmic Power (which I will now henceforth call BCP) probably wants me to suffer. Give a suffering man a little optimism then strike him down I guess. BCP, you suck. Quit screwing around with me and screw someone else over. Goddamn it, get a life.

For most people, they have things to keep them afloat and in good will like good grades, nice hobby, ever faithful friends, a boyfriend/girlfriend, stable family income or a combination of things but it looks bleak for Marty in all points and in my state of mind, I would gladly -but not so much- contradict;

Good grades - they won't prepare you for the real world. I hope you have a prayer
Nice Hobby - It only goes so far as your time and wallet are concerned
Ever-faithful friends - They're going to die one time or another
A boyfriend/girlfriend - Read the line above
Stable family income - Money can't buy you anything in death save a good funeral

So there you have it. If any of you think you have these things to keep you sane and happy, please remember Marty's ever-enlightening wisdom about things in YOUR life. Also, I'd like to say my day picked up cuz I managed to buy Sandman: Fables and Reflections today at 20% discount. Woohoo! Who needs a love life, good grades and what nots if you got depressing and morbid stories about a pale white guy who's too stuck in his little world to give a damn about people?

Riding the Lightning
5:50 PM

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