I seem to have dreamed of a really good story but when I woke up, I uh... kinda forgot about it. Hopefully though, it comes back to me but most likely, it won't sooooooo that sucks. I did happen to chance upon something sort of dramatic or I dunno what's the word for it.basta

I was buying some stuff in the cafeteria and my hands were full. Apparently, I can't carry too many things with my two hands. Hmm... the funny thing was the thought of being lonely and secluded crossed my mind a couple of times kasi. As of now, I have not been in contact with a lot of my friends and sometimes, I do kind of need them even if I don't talk to them every minute, it's just comforting to see them online in YM or see that they left an email once in a while. Right, people promise that they will be there but they aren't because they have their own lives to worry about. It's something I accept so I don't really want anyone looking out for me but there are times when I do and for those times, I am often left disappointed because no one's there when I need them.

I think maybe I'm agreeing to what Glenn said way back then that a friend somehow already knows when something is happening and I said in reply that, that was bullshit because if we have problems, we should initiate conversation but now though, it seems I'm kind of leaning to Glenn's point. It's just that I don't really know what to tell people, even I don't know what my problem is and not many people in my life could really pry out what's my problem because all they can do is listen, they never ask, they don't want to find out what's really happening, they're pretty much content by just hearing someone's sad story. I accept that because I do that too but there are those few select people who do genuinely care, those who know how to make you feel better and who don't just listen but understand also, those kinds of people are so rare in my life because it takes those kinds of people to gain my absolute trust. So there are times when I only have two hands to carry my things but then again, I gotta learn how to balance those things because I can't really count on people popping up with a helping hand -- no -- most would just listen to how you bitch about not being able to carry everything, most would give you instructions how to carry everything yet it is rare to have someone actually carry some things. Kinda reminds of that guy who helped Jesus carry a cross, ya know.

I guess I can continue this some other time. I'm just using the pc at school, alone as usual as other people have businesses to take care of. I've met people I've known over the walk here and I waved and said my hi's to have them wave and say hi back to me or just completely ignore me. Geez, talk about irony eh? Another story, I will post later. It's pretty much about Manuel and the things that are about to happen as we approach the last trimester of the year, it's Autumn season in most countries which means the season of change. Here though, we don't have Autumn so perhaps... we don't really see things change but they do...

They always do