Sunday, September 11, 2005
My Frozen Calf Muscle
I think I wore down so many cliche'd angst-y themes that writing about them seems to be tedious now, nevertheless, the soul gets hurt and we can't help but scream out in the dark in pain.
Today, I woke up to a very lousy sensation. As I stretched my legs, my calf muscles got a cramp and I pretty much limped the whole day. It sucked really but the nice thing was I didn't have any plans today... That's sad. Saturday night with no plans, what has my life turned into...
Many conversations with people arose during the week prior to this dismal saturday. Some though, I would rather disclose only to myself since I have sworn oaths all over the place but probably the most interesting conversation so far was the one with Stanley who just so happens to have sparked a conversation with me on a friday night. I met him a while ago in Ateneo looking at rocks (?) and he went to watch me and Myles play dota the afternoon later. Hmm...
The conversation that took place was surprising as I haven't mirrored myself to see where I am as of late. Apparently, I am becoming more and more introverted. I do not go out as much with friends anymore and my social life is in shambles. School does that to you I guess. Perhaps I lost track of having fun in the long run. I miss the people I hang out with.
The 2nd conversation happened to involve a lot about feelings and love. I for one, am not an expert in love but I am rather adept at analyzing people. I find it extremely interesting that there are so many secrets that hides within the human heart and mind. As far as finding out people's secrets are concerned, I really believe some secrets are better left untouched. It's as if once we really like someone, we tend to piece them into tiny bits so that maybe we can attach ourselve to those bits and pieces. This concerns a lot about secrets and I am one who has kept many already, other's and mine combined yet I do not find the need to keep them for I do not really wish to be attached to anyone's laundry :P Labo hahahaha
The 3rd conversation was just this night. I gave Sophia a call after a looooong time of busy hell weeks and I was relieved to have conversed with her again haha. It was weird though because he were both watching School of Rock so we pretty much spent the night watching the same movie, only , on the phone. Really though, I couldn't tell her much of the things that has happened over the weeks because some things were just too personal that I couldn't breach that line of trust and even if I trust her to somehow lend an ear to some things, I guess I couldn't do that as of that time. Oh, and I guess for the first time, I heard her laugh. Uhuh, uhm, mhm...
The rest of the day was spent limping for food downstairs, where I feasted upon a whole chicken. The rents were going to Shangri-La to eat in the massive buffet so they cooked me and my bro a chicken. It was devoured in 10 minutes. Yum.
Though a month away, several people have already noted on my birthday. Lester for one, who I thought forgotten, actually remembered haha. He's up for a party so maybe I will have one who knows right? My 19th year on the 19th wow.
Another thing though is that on Wednesday, I think our Filipino group will be singing in class. Now this reminds me of three occasions when I had to sing in class. God, not again. I actually rapped in class twice already, once in 3rd year and the second in 1st year college. It is fun though, you'd look like a fool but that doesn't really matter because you're having fun anyways, besides, not a lot of people have the testicular fortitude to do a rap in front of class right? hahaha Besides, I think I can rap pretty good anyways. Sing? maybe not but I can dream can I?
So what can I say? Things happen in life that make it interesting. Change is constant I guess and as I blabber on about meaningless nothings, I hope that you have these sorts of meaningless nothings to tell your grandchildren when you get old, provided you don't die yet. I have lots, I'm gonna make a good grandfather...yes, a good grandfather
Nonsense
Riding the Lightning
2:11 AM
