Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Grand Glorious Finale, El Grande Finale, The Ender, Ang Katapusan, The Period at the End of a Sentence: The Fitting End to a Fitting Semester
In Universe X, a comic I keep to heart, the flames of humanity has burned its final light and imminent death approaches as the world is torn by civil war, famine and chaos brought upon by the unavoidable fate dictated by the cosmos. Yet, a promise was kept that day that when the fires of humanity are threatened to be extinguished, one shining ray of light will keep it aflame and who held that promise? Not even a man who resides on earth, but a being who has grown to love humanity, even with its imperfections. Norrin Radd took heart once again and defended the one last stride for hope. He mourns for the death of his comrades and allies in the past yet death waits for no one and as much as his heart is battered from the scars of previous battles, he stands to fight and face tomorrow.
His last words were: "Why must the grieving be so short... and this life so long?
My answer: Because life never waits. It moves on, whether you like it or not.
I just finished Math finals today and it went well I guess but in my mind, I can't help but think about tomorrow. The end of the sem and the last of my finals, ELC. When I got my first failing LT in ELC, I wanted to end the sem right away but now that I'm on the edge of the finish line, I feel afraid to cross it. Too many mistakes, too much at risk, I might fail but there's nothing stopping the inevitable. Other people may find studying easy and they give that extra effort to get the grade and I admire that of them but for me, I guess grades doesn't matter as much... even if it should. I've never really given much thought on why I chose this course but I like it and I want to work hard for it but every time someone tells me they want a higher grade, I feel ashamed of myself for coming up with that mediocre grade of mine. I've been sermoned lots of times about doing my best but I don't find a point in doing so. I'm so uninspired... and ever since my test scores plummeted, it took all my strength to try to catch my breath in this drowning pool of F's and mediocrity
I put myself in this position and I have to get myself out, pass or fail. I wonder though what tomorrow and the day after brings. I know it won't be happy ever after and I'm sure more things are to come. I know life bites yet I'm not afraid as much about it because it's a fact, things go to shit. Take my life, take my example or everyone else's. It may be different for another person but the theme is the same, life never lets up until you're dead.
I hope some people learn something from me in one of these ramblings. Life sucks but I live it. I don't care, I'm stronger than that. As long as you see tomorrow, there is light shining your way. No matter how much we wander in the dark, or fallen from the light, we must move on and find tomorrow.
Comic books... the only world I grew up in
Riding the Lightning
9:40 AM
