Yesterday was one of those weird days of mine where I'm always in an odd mix between embarrassment and unfortunate circumstances. Here's what happened

There was a history group project of mine which would start on 10:30am. I spent the prior night playing DOTA all the live long day yesterday and slept for 2am. I thought well, 8 hours of sleep will still do be good but really it didn't. When I woke up at the ETA of 10am, my head throbbed of pain and my chest was heavy. It hurt when I breathed in and it seemed like oxygen was not filling into my brain the right way. In any case, I took a shower, got dressed then drove to Ateneo.

Man, it was a hot day. I had to wait for my group to show up so I decided to text them. OUT OF CREDITS, goddamn. Fishing my wallet out of my pocket, I counted what little money I had left -php450. Now I owed Marc 40, and buying a prepaid card would cost 300, leaving me with 110 for lunch... yet I remembered that we might spend 50 each to buy a blank tape for filiming today. 60 left? Goddamn. Well, it's a good thing I don't have a date else we'd be eating fishballs on the street corner haha hehe hihi hoho... huhuhu

Finally Carlos and Marc came to school. I waited at the Sanggu room for the meantime and looking at the board I saw these two funny valentines messages:

1. TIIS - Tang-Ina I'm Single
2. SAD - Singles Awareness Day

That is so clever hahaha. Eventually we found this stapler that was so awesome. It was really really long, you can staple any size of paper with the friggin thing. Well, after that, I took my glasses of to clean them and noticed that they weren't straight. Being the smart guy that I am, I tried to bend my glasses' frame to even em out and then... *SNAP* That's right, I broke em haha. I didn't bring my screwdriver to fix it so I kind of had this brief moment of panic when I was trying to think of a way to get back home without crashing the car. Eventually, Carlos just taped my glasses over the frame. My left eye was covered in tape mind you. Happy day.

Ray was late and Carlos' friend Raissa wasn't due until 12:30. So there was this long hour of waiting. We opted to go to National then to buy the tape. With tape over my left eye, I went. Been a long time since I've been in a bookstore. After finding the tape, I went over to my favorite section -FICTION!- and I found Neil Gaiman's new novel, ANANSI BOYS! Php1000! Well... that's about php940 too high for me huhuhu it was so sad. Eventually, I found a very interesting book to read, PRIESTLY PEDOPHILES. haha. Raissa came to Natio then we went back to filiming.

The filming went kind of smoothly after. I was so happy when we finally finished the friggin thing. I spent 3 weeks for that thing. I just hope it goes well, it's one of the worse, low budget production we ever made. hahahaha

Later, we went to my grandma's to celebrate her 76th bday! It was so much fun because my cousins were all there. Moreover some of my godmothers came by. The minute I stepped out of the car and went in, my relatives asked me whether I had a girlfriend. For the love of God, if I have to answer that question every time I went to a reunion, I'd shoot myself. NO, I don't have one. Actually it got to a point where it was already funny. My cousins said that I was a lot more talkative now so they THOUGHT I had a girlfriend which they then told my uncles, aunties, godmothers and eventually my parents who then confronted me to ask if it was true. NO, IT ISN'T. It eventually got embarrassing when they kept on saying how sad it would be if I didn't have one because I won't have children blah blah blah. Tch, relatives (rolls eyes)

The night ended when I went online to YM and decided to post the thing I saw in the Sanggu board as my status. Man, did a lot of people reply. People who I didn't even speak to that much talked to me haha. I went back to chatting with people that night. I can't remember how long a time it was when I had to talk with three people at a time.

When everyone left the party, it was the 3 of us cousins left. We were talking about careers and the future and stuff. Eventually it got to a discussion about my problems, yes mine. Everything I had written here over the past week, I told them and well, they kind of helped me a little bit. I guess the truth is, I have to stop trying to forgive myself and just go ahead and do it. Big difference between trying and doing they say and it was true. That night though I realized that I cannot fully get rid of my bad attitude because well, I need it. I can't be too nice, nor too bad. The bad guy makes me brave and the good guy makes me do what's right, put them together, I hope it results to a better me.

To end the day, I went to sleep like I always do. I thought about the day I had and how awful it was... and how good it felt to write it an tell it to people for their amusement. I guess you do need a little good and bad in everything, don't you think?