The Lonely Road

The name's Marty

age: 20
sign: Libra
hobbies: writing, reading, games

Quotes of my life:

1. I spent half my life betraying a friend or an ideal I believed in,
The other half is spent trying to find the strength to say "I'm sorry" -Nighthawk

2. Nothing should be able to do that, especially not love -Rose Walker

3. By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe -V

4. When you're on you're knees you're closer to the ground -Tori Amos

5. Why must the grieving be so short and this life so long? -Silver Surfer

6. You should never forget that people do care -Richmond

7. Love was never meant to be such a crazy affair, and who has time for tears? -Akira Yamaoka

8. Friend, at your service! -Berk

9. Happy is me cuz only u make urself miserable -Myles

10. Safe to say, everyone believes in your willpower -Glenn

11. On the road to redemption, just because we are told not to forget
doesn't mean we have to go through things alone -original

12. One true friend is better than a dozen liars -confessional

13. Just live life -James

14. I'd rather be the moon to shine your darkest night -Sophia

15. Life is a circumstance -original

16. Better to live in solitude than feel alone amongst a crowd -Faye

17. That's why ice cream stores don't only sell Chocolate and Vanilla,
Once in a while, someone comes in and orders Butter Pecan -Ralph Digby

18. And so, I'll follow you through the darkness of this world, no matter the pain,
Because I know that you'll be there to light my way -God Knows

19. Sometimes, people build walls around them to have people knock them down -???

20. Now, you listen to me, James Hawkins. You got the makings of greatness in you, but you got to take the helm and chart your own course. Stick to it, no matter the squalls! And when the time comes you get the chance to really test the cut of your sails, and show what you're made of! Well, I hope I'm there, catching some of the light coming off you that day. -John Silver

Still some more to be found...

Saturday, March 04, 2006
Fuel is My Addiction

Take this

"Kid, people up here do not know what we do. They still think that they are living safe and secure lives."

"What is it that we do?" he asked, "Felnon keeps saying, we are protecting people here but from what? Richmond says we should protect them from themselves but, why would they want to harm each other in the first place?"

"You have a lot to learn, kid. People make mistakes, you know that right? And well, people can make really big mistakes often, caused from misunderstanding and pride, human fallacies, you see."

"So we are protecting people from their mistakes?"

"Well, kind of. They tend to go too far also and that"s where we come in. We do not let it get too far. People don't see when they do, kid. It's another flaw. We don't realize that we have gone too far until we do. Often, hurting other people in the way."

Ah, the old Dream Machine. Don't you love going back to old stories? I happen to do. I wrote this about a year back and I still remember how fresh the idea of this story went. People were stupid mistake making beings that didn't know when to stop.

The fun thing that I probed through with this idea that we never realize our mistakes until it was too late. The ultimate irony, I say. With a clear head and a working brain, we could very well avoid mistakes and it is often that very feeling that we feel whenever we have done something wrong. It's like taking a test. You answer some numbers and by the end, when you realize that you made a mistake and you say to yourself, "Heck, I knew the answer. How careless I was. Why didn't I think of that??"

I guess I think that's the great thing about being human after all. I used to hate people or humanity for that matter because we never seem to learn. We are so flawed. Everything seems imperfect, so incomplete. The only thing that you can expect to happen properly is that you will be born, live and ultimately die. Why hate such an essential thing?

Hahaha, mistakes, mistakes, mistakes. Everyone makes em, why fight it. All we can really hope is to learn from them and move on to better things. I made mistakes a lot of times but not usually committing one to myself, that's just stupid but hey, a person can change. We all hope to. The great thing about mistakes for me is that, I can write about them. Sure, I may be an object of ridicule or scrutiny but then again, it's not like I'm going to run any longer from them am I?

Let me rant a little bit more. Why is it when you say I love you to someone then that someone rejects you, the whole world changes? I was watching Curious Play (Fushigi Yuugi) in Animax just a while ago when this whole scene where the girl tells the guy she fell in love with him and the guy rejects her happens. Wow, story of my love life haha but really, I think it's a lot more common than I thought. Apparently, this void is created once the dreaded three words are uttered. Why? embarrassment I guess. We, and by we I mean the busted rejects, usually wonder what the awkward silence is all about and usually, it is labelled by a BIG MISTAKE on the part of the person saying he/she loves person 2. Honestly? I think it is never a big mistake to do so. The only mistake, I think, you can do in the situation is that you never get everything out in the open or in the case of person 2, didn't end things in a complete sentence.

The funnier thing is, when it's all over, you get that question again. "Now why did I do that? It sounded so stupid" like that test question I stated above. Bam! It's got you, your brain failed you again haha but it's not like you can do anything about it, it's done. We are so flawed and yet, so wonderfully inadequate to become perfect at the same time. Gotta love it

Riding the Lightning
11:28 PM

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