I always thought that the days of Summer were filled with experiences and memories that last for a lifetime. I could always tell a story by starting my sentence with "During the summer of..." so I guess it's true. Changes happen fast within these two months of sun and right when school starts, I find myself winded or recovering from the events of summer. Is it the sun or the days that come with it?

This summer gave me a LOT of new memories. It's been the 9th straight year for me and my grade school friends; the best darn group of crazy people I have met. You know, I've met a lot of people over the years and spent a great number of time with each of them but for that one time a year, it seemed to make such a bigger deal. I guess maybe it's the 9 years of meeting each other at the same place and all. If I ever find myself lost, confused, depressed, sad, in despair or anything, I guess I'll always have something to look forward to.

Summer class may have just given me a place to belong after these first two years of ECE ambiguity. I've gotten to know a lot more of my coursemates and found a group of friends to belong in. It's starting to feel a bit more comfortable in this trying course. The classes were hard but then again, I look forward to the one and a half hour break where we just hang out and talk about anything funny. It feels better to be around school more.

I also went out with Sophia after 3 years of not meeting each other. Even though it's just lunch, it was such a big deal for me. I'm crazy about this girl yet I always seem to fall short of asking her out. But then again, I still took a shot and what do you know, I got a break haha. I was finally able to give her the bracelet I had bought in Boracay when the thought of her passed my mind. Man, I was all nerves that day. I think she's the first girl I've gone out with since... oops, something I shouldn't talk about. But in any case, I had a great time and I hope she had a great time too. I have to admit seeing her after so long made me feel... um, I don't think I can say it out here. Sorry hehe. Miss you, beautiful

Hay... should I talk about it more? I miss this feeling. I don't feel angry or sad anymore which makes it hard for me to write. What's happening to me... I don't understand. If I remember correctly, I was always angry about something but now, I don't feel the need to be. Tell you something though:

"Every time on the way home, I pass by that street and I remember how I have let things go so easily without trying; how I always choose to drive the opposite road, the road meant to be not the road I had wanted. Would you have given me a chance if I did or would I have to suffer the pain of heartbreak all over again?"

These words formed in my head on the way home, when I passed by the street she used to live in. God, get over it. I'm thinking too much again. If it's not meant to be, I'm not complaining.

Let me share a little about May. May is the month where it starts to rain, the month where the first showers begin. Our history teacher always said that the rain brought about the symbol of life or a new beginning yet I always thought of rain as the tears I couldn't cry. As May begins, I feel the heaviness in my heart again as I remember... my first heartbreak and how a dear friend and I had to part ways. I am reminded of dark afternoons on my windowsills, fighting the urge to cower before the sound of thunder just because I wanted to see the raindrops fall.

I like the way storms brew. The clouds start to darken little by little, hardly noticeable until its already there. Then the first trickle of raindrops begin to hit my arm, sending shivers and then a strong wind kicks in as the rain begins to drop heavily and covering everything in this white shine. You never notice it but things glow when hit by the rain. I love rain, it reminds me of so many things; good or bad but more than that, it reminds me that summer... has ended.

I wish I could live everyday like summer; feeling the tingle of adventure, the excitement of a date or even the lazy afternoons spent at home, love every minute of it. I wish I lived summer everyday.