The Lonely Road

The name's Marty

age: 20
sign: Libra
hobbies: writing, reading, games

Quotes of my life:

1. I spent half my life betraying a friend or an ideal I believed in,
The other half is spent trying to find the strength to say "I'm sorry" -Nighthawk

2. Nothing should be able to do that, especially not love -Rose Walker

3. By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe -V

4. When you're on you're knees you're closer to the ground -Tori Amos

5. Why must the grieving be so short and this life so long? -Silver Surfer

6. You should never forget that people do care -Richmond

7. Love was never meant to be such a crazy affair, and who has time for tears? -Akira Yamaoka

8. Friend, at your service! -Berk

9. Happy is me cuz only u make urself miserable -Myles

10. Safe to say, everyone believes in your willpower -Glenn

11. On the road to redemption, just because we are told not to forget
doesn't mean we have to go through things alone -original

12. One true friend is better than a dozen liars -confessional

13. Just live life -James

14. I'd rather be the moon to shine your darkest night -Sophia

15. Life is a circumstance -original

16. Better to live in solitude than feel alone amongst a crowd -Faye

17. That's why ice cream stores don't only sell Chocolate and Vanilla,
Once in a while, someone comes in and orders Butter Pecan -Ralph Digby

18. And so, I'll follow you through the darkness of this world, no matter the pain,
Because I know that you'll be there to light my way -God Knows

19. Sometimes, people build walls around them to have people knock them down -???

20. Now, you listen to me, James Hawkins. You got the makings of greatness in you, but you got to take the helm and chart your own course. Stick to it, no matter the squalls! And when the time comes you get the chance to really test the cut of your sails, and show what you're made of! Well, I hope I'm there, catching some of the light coming off you that day. -John Silver

Still some more to be found...

Thursday, August 03, 2006
Give Me a Pill Please

Give me a pill please; a pill to make me forget. Give me a pill please; a pill to make things go away. Give me a pill please; because I can't take it any longer. Finally, give me a pill please; cuz no one's listening.

Marty (8/3/2006 11:06:40 PM): i think i dont have anyone to talk to now
Marty (8/3/2006 11:06:55 PM): and by talk. i mean, reciprocate
Marty (8/3/2006 11:07:06 PM): sometimes ppl say im weird by the things i say
Marty (8/3/2006 11:07:20 PM): cuz i am different, i dont conform
Marty (8/3/2006 11:08:15 PM): there are times where i have to go thru things alone
Marty (8/3/2006 11:08:22 PM): it's like
Marty (8/3/2006 11:08:32 PM): when ur sitting on a bench with ur friends
Marty (8/3/2006 11:08:43 PM): then they all leave in pairs or in groups
Marty (8/3/2006 11:08:51 PM): and u realize ur the only one left
Marty (8/3/2006 11:09:10 PM): and no one's there anymore cuz its just u who dont have classes
Marty (8/3/2006 11:12:50 PM): it's annoying
Marty (8/3/2006 11:12:54 PM): i get sick of it
Marty (8/3/2006 11:13:03 PM): yet at the same time, i kind of envy it
Marty (8/3/2006 11:13:07 PM): and it pisses me off more
Marty (8/3/2006 11:15:07 PM): cuz it shows how weak and needy i am

Marty (8/3/2006 10:54:28 PM): i know the feeling whenever u "lose" friends
Marty (8/3/2006 10:54:36 PM): ive lost enough of them, honestly
Marty (8/3/2006 10:54:51 PM): which is why i find it somewhat stupid to even try to make friends
Marty (8/3/2006 10:55:10 PM): cuz in the end, maybe all there is is yourself to lean on to
Marty (8/3/2006 10:55:24 PM): its a really, really grim thought

Marty (8/3/2006 10:56:24 PM): well i just need a better opinion
Marty (8/3/2006 10:56:55 PM): cuz sometimes, whenever i have something bothering me
Marty (8/3/2006 10:57:03 PM): it's like no one cares enough
Marty (8/3/2006 10:57:16 PM): like i often feel alone
Marty (8/3/2006 10:57:35 PM): even if ur around with friends
Marty (8/3/2006 10:57:52 PM): i always feel like i do not belong, cuz i have to be somewhere else
Marty (8/3/2006 10:58:25 PM): i dont know if u get it

Marty (8/3/2006 11:23:40 PM): me though, i just minimalize everything
Marty (8/3/2006 11:23:43 PM): until it doesnt matter
Marty (8/3/2006 11:26:41 PM): seems to make things easier
Marty (8/3/2006 11:26:52 PM): and at the very most, bearable

I really appreciate the people who listened yesterday. It's nice to know I'm wrong at times. Though I had a hard time talking about it, you guys did your best to actually help. You can't imagine how much that means to me. I might still have doubts about trusting people but at least... it's a start.

Sorry, it's just been a really emo week

Riding the Lightning
10:03 PM

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