Ultimate Spiderman is so cool.

I am up to book 5 already and it left me hanging in a bad way. DAMMIT. MJ and Peter broke up by the end of book 5 so I was completely stunned when I got to the final pages. Growing up knowing the spiderman story by heart then having that suddenly happen really catches you off guard but then again, if you read it, you'll see a more human side to the story - something that was (in my opinion) missing in the older stories.

I mean, you never see the good guys break up with their girlfriends or how they get bullied in school - you never see them cry or get fed up living with the burden of responsibility, but they do and that's why I'm particularly attached to the Spiderman stories. I don't know if you've read any of the stories, you'd probably just know everything from the movie or the short version but for me, everyone goes through the same things. We all lose people we love at a point in our lives and we each have to sacrifice the things we want for ourselves for the benefit of something far greater than ourselves. Power and Responsibility - the overused cliche. It happens to everyone right? That's the painful thing about the whole thing - you can not always get what you want.

Despite that, you just have to try and work with the broken pieces you have. The thing about working with broken pieces is, you get cut using them - that's why the whole is better than the piece but that's not happening any time soon so we all just have to try to keep it all together. Things will either make you or break you but it's all the same, we all go through the same thing like what my cousin passed down to me, "maybe the biggest problem with depression is that we walk around thinking were the only one whose suffering from it" - there's an arrogance to that but isn't it true in fact that in the misfortunes of a circumstance, we tend to hide it or keep it bottled inside, afraid of letting other people find out for the sake of saving face. When we talk to a friend, we confide our weaknesses - hoping to find strength amidst the pain but what hurts is the disappointment we feel when we find out that we are actually alone when our so-called friends do not care or worse, betray us.

Still... we search for that strength we cannot find within ourselves in the people around us. Or sometimes, we find our strength in the things that are greater than ourselves: in beliefs, faith, philosophies and ideals. There is hope there, as well as salvation and redemption. Power and Responsibility, it's not a one way street. Life throws you lemons, make lemonade as the saying goes. It's really easy to say but it takes something more than human to make it work.

"So, I'm just -- going to live my life that way and everything else is noise."