Thursday, April 19, 2007
Insert Warning Here
I stay awake thinking about you. It's so hard to let you go.
I'm in pain.
Too many things remind me of a happier time and the truth is, I'm tired of playing games. If you don't like me, I wish you said it straight to my face so then, I'll burn down all remembrances (if there were any) and maybe move on.
But I can't.
Instead, I wait. I wait for you to look my way, to reach out to me, to hear me... I wish it wasn't like this but I'm finding it hard to deny my feelings towards you and that gives me all the more pain... because you just don't give me the time of day. I'm being tested I know but why is it so cruel? What did I do to deserve this aside from coming to terms with my true emotions? Time and time again I find that the truth is something not a lot of people want to hear and even more strange is how much I'm willing to put up with that crap to have myself broken again. Life's not fair... you're not fair... nothing is.
Just... just... leave me alone...
Riding the Lightning
6:27 PM