The Lonely Road

The name's Marty

age: 20
sign: Libra
hobbies: writing, reading, games

Quotes of my life:

1. I spent half my life betraying a friend or an ideal I believed in,
The other half is spent trying to find the strength to say "I'm sorry" -Nighthawk

2. Nothing should be able to do that, especially not love -Rose Walker

3. By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe -V

4. When you're on you're knees you're closer to the ground -Tori Amos

5. Why must the grieving be so short and this life so long? -Silver Surfer

6. You should never forget that people do care -Richmond

7. Love was never meant to be such a crazy affair, and who has time for tears? -Akira Yamaoka

8. Friend, at your service! -Berk

9. Happy is me cuz only u make urself miserable -Myles

10. Safe to say, everyone believes in your willpower -Glenn

11. On the road to redemption, just because we are told not to forget
doesn't mean we have to go through things alone -original

12. One true friend is better than a dozen liars -confessional

13. Just live life -James

14. I'd rather be the moon to shine your darkest night -Sophia

15. Life is a circumstance -original

16. Better to live in solitude than feel alone amongst a crowd -Faye

17. That's why ice cream stores don't only sell Chocolate and Vanilla,
Once in a while, someone comes in and orders Butter Pecan -Ralph Digby

18. And so, I'll follow you through the darkness of this world, no matter the pain,
Because I know that you'll be there to light my way -God Knows

19. Sometimes, people build walls around them to have people knock them down -???

20. Now, you listen to me, James Hawkins. You got the makings of greatness in you, but you got to take the helm and chart your own course. Stick to it, no matter the squalls! And when the time comes you get the chance to really test the cut of your sails, and show what you're made of! Well, I hope I'm there, catching some of the light coming off you that day. -John Silver

Still some more to be found...

Monday, May 28, 2007
No Title in Particular

Summer officially begins again today as I now ready the last of my papers to be submitted today. The succeeding weeks promises to be filled with gimiks and I honestly can't wait to get it all started.

I'd like to say that I've calmed myself down from the drama of last week. Everything then was like a spiraling torrent that tore me apart and I've encountered thoughts that I didn't want to have to remember. In any case, I'd like to thank some of my friends for listening to my plights (like Aldrin and Jaco) and I'd like for them to know that I really appreciate it that they listened amidst our busy schedules.

In the end of things, I realize that life is never to be defined by clear definition. It is never black or white and never kind. As much as one person dreams for things to go right, it doesn't always end up that way, yet no matter how much disappointment hurts, it's never in our perrogative to give up. Someone out there tests us everyday, kicks us when we're down and laughs at us when we cry but we have to remember that life will have its ups and downs. No matter what, life has a way of coming back to full circle.

I want to believe that.

If it was meant to be, then who am I to complain? I can't control what life throws at me, I just hope I have a good arm to catch it with and throw it right back. The truth is, to live in conflict is the only way I know how to live. Conflict makes me feel alive... not joy, success or love... the internal and external forces that threaten to tear me apart are that of which keeps me alive. Ironic? Maybe... but I've learned a lot of things these past few years but none more so than the realization that without conflict, I am not driven to rise above it.

I find no other thing to live for aside from the challenge that life presents... the challenge to be defined, to be content, to be loved... I hope to find that place or that time in my life that I will come to terms with my demons but for now, let the demons of my past haunt me every night. Let them wreak havoc on my heart and have them taunt me whenever I fall in love... life will come full circle and then I'll find peace to calm my storm. I hope...

Riding the Lightning
6:25 AM

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