Life is never always filled with butterflies, you taught me that
You were harsh yet realistic, optimistic at the same time
Why is that? How can you smile when you know it's going to hurt?

I could never understand that thing about you until I learned firsthand,
how it felt to be crushed under the weight of pain and sorrow.
That day you said goodbye, that moment where everything went black.
That instance the stars didn't shine anymore.

What can possibly come out of the pain you left me, I wonder.
I cry out in my dreams, searching for an answer
but no one replies save you, your voice is the one thing I hear.
And it's wretched, absolutely wicked as if to
taunt me
mock me
pity me
Never to console, to ease, to humor or entertain.
It was always about pain.

Has it always been painful? The way things were?
Yes, definitely. It had always hurt whenever I remember you
and even more so when I say to myself, I'm moving on.
And though you haunt me every single day,
I try to keep smiling for the sake of the people who actually care.
In that resolve, I have found my cure against your curse.

You never cared.
It never meant anything to you.
Everything that went on, you admonished, to never have happened.
You'd rather say I didn't exist to keep yourself happy
and I let that slide, thinking that it was for the best
for both of us to have never met at all when we did.

I permitted myself to get lost and blame myself,
never once thinking that it was you who didn't want to be friends anymore
I tried my best to be friends again, to sacrifice my own feelings even
just for the sake of our friendship
but it wasn't enough was it?
Apparently, our friendship wasn't worth saving
even though I...
Loved you
I thought that would make it stronger but it just tore it apart
You ended it, not me. You didn't want to be friends anymore
You didn't want me to have ever happened in your life.

That is the most painful thing anyone has ever said to me,
and I will never forget that.
I thought you were my friend and I loved you as one
but to have you say that to me...
destroyed everything I have ever lived up for

So move on with your happy life.
Move on towards the future you so hope to achieve
I, on the other hand, will never forget the pain that you have left.
I will curse you over and over, hoping that you WILL feel the same pain
because I have had enough of hypocrisy and broken promises.
"Friends" is a word that you so conveniently throw
at anyone who gives you a second look.

Never again, bitch
Never again

Life is never always filled with butterflies,
and that's because of people like you.